9th March 2009 @ 10.30am

Finally... I've got my one-day Break... from all work,stress,pressure n tension...
on Saturday went out with my best bud again... it suprises me when he asked me out...

in the car..we chatted but after a moment.. i jus kept quiet..all the way.. so he came n kacau me asking me to talk..
i dunno wats goin on my mind,, n i dun really know wat was i thinking about... so he said.."r u thinking about something??" So i told him wat's goin on my mind..

i've thought about money problems, mum... cause she's gonna hv a hard time paying bills..
bt that's not all... its just i dun wan 2 tell him more...
bt he suggested tat i go for applying for air stewardess..as im young..he said the pay is quite high..n i can travel around n will get to know about lotsa people...so i said i'll try..

the real thing is..im very tired of all these stuffs tat is happening...
that guy who always thinks tat he's right all the time..who's taking money from mum n sis...
whom hates me so much...i really hope tat he change...
yesterday... when we reach home after church...
he went out n came back home in a few minutes (or u can say its seconds)

surely to ask money from mum...after asking money..he came n scold us about the house about all stupid stuffs...
saying tat he suffers scoldings from bosses when he is working because of my kin whom knows his boss...
bt tat is all bull shit...he has to resign because his company asked him to..cause he thinks tat he's boss...appearing for work late..came home early..when his superior ask him to do wat he dun wan..he'll complain...
then..he said that when he assked for a little bit of money from mum to start a business mum will do her face..saying tat we look down on him n all...
bt wat/how can u start a business wit a few hundreds?? these r all bull shit!!
he went out again n then came back twice..scolding..like a bloody stupid crazy man...

i think he put a spell on us.. for we cant scold him back..when u feel like scolding him for he's being ridiculous..like wat really happen to me whe he gave me that last warning...its not tat i dun wan to not bother him..its juz tat im stopped by somthing so tat i cant speak out...mum told me tat all of us are in a spell..if we wan to get the spell broken.. it needs a month..

then at night..he kept saying tat the 4 of us planned already..cause we're getting an old car from grandpa..which
grandpa use to drive..he said tat we've planned tat when we got the car.. we ask him to drive tat old car n ask da jie to drive tat waja... he owaz said tat we've planned to get back at him.. its true tat we've plan to get the old car n let him drive it cause he's only goin local... bt for da jie she's owaz travelling to penang island..so which one deserve the waja?? surely the one who's driving far...cause its easier...

as for wat franklin suggested..i told him that i will consider.. he asked "y wait?, look u're holding urself back..its not ur family...u, urself..." then when we reach my home....we hugged n i thank him for the fun n movie.the last words tat he told me is.. "dun think too much..ur poor brain is exhausted"... i said i'll try...with a smile...