8th July 2010 - Thursday @ 2109hours

So..Im currently at home.. got nothing to do..so though of blogging..haha..

I've juz read a friend's blog.. super damn funny.. bt for sure they do hv their ups n downs.. So I've juz finished reading it..

Hmm! I've received a super duper great news from Alicia jie..saying that Gege's adopted cat,Mao Mao is getting better aft the tragic accident that Mao Mao got into.. =) Now Mao Mao can walk, pee and poo by herself.. So happy for her! Keep it up Mao Mao! Jia You! Its truly a miracle..

Last week, I went out with my movie buddy Franklin..hehe..Actually we wanted to watch Karate Kid..Bt in e end we've decide to watch "The Backup Plan" by J.Lo instead.. Had e laugh of my day after all.. N I'm still smiling after that.. well Franklin really makes me laugh my heart out most of e time... Haha..

Well, Frankie he's really a great friend.. He's there for me when i need him.. No matter my ups n downs..my whines n complaints.. He's owaz there for me..

Juz like e other day, when I wanted to attend the interview for SIA's Cabin Crew, that is held in Evergreen Laurel Hotel (Penang Island).. He specially came after his night shift job n fetch me for e interview.. I really thanked him for that.. He actually accompanied me there n waited for me outside.. Thus he smsed me when I'm in e waiting hall..Advising me.. Bt in e end I failed at e 1st round of e interview.. T.T I went n look for him, when we left e building,he consoled me n tell me to go for more interviews.. n thus treat me to a hearty breakfast.. =D (Frank! Thank you so much!! I will remember this till e end of my days! Will give u a treat if I got the job!)

So I got my iPhone edi..n that was during May..haha Thanks Mum! Thank you for letting me use ur credit card to get myself a phone..Thus letting me use it for my iTunes account! Love u to the max! As promised..everything Im goin to download are free!! XD

I'm living in e life that everybody loves me alot.. =)

21st June 2010 - Wednesday @1010hours

Wow! Its been a long time since i've blog.. haha XD...hv been smiling lately.. =D

Well these few weeks it has been raining here n there.. n i wonder y la doesnt it rain ystday?? It would b v nice if it rain ystday, cause its really nice to sleep when the rain comes rite? Bt sadly it dint rain ystday.. it would b v nice to sleep if it rains..don't u agree??

Anyway, last week got to spend e time with cousins..esp the ones from Kemaman.. when they're back here in Penang for a vaca..its like Hallelujah! Its Chinese New Year.! Haha..XD I love it when we gathered together n hv fun together..well we've enjoyed our times together.. well u can enjoy e pics in my fb account though.. lazy to post it up here..hehe *blushing* Im treasuring every minutes n seconds when we're together.. =)

As for Sunday (yesterday), actually plan to go to Queensbay using mum's car.. bt then somebody took it la..n that "somebody" I meant is him la..Talking abt him.. He took mum's car when mum's in JB for meeting.. He even drove all e F**ing way to Cameron Highland.. Mei told me abt it..coz he bought strawberries back..n use e car till ystday night..dunno where he went bt when he got e car..he drove it n most of e nights he's not home...

Thus b4 mum went to JB..I was e one who suppose to fetch mum to airport..bt then out of a sudden he went hay wired...scold mum that like she never teach us..thus dunno how mum teaches us.. this n that all B**S***...aft that he insisted to drive mum to e airport..Mum told me this when she touched down in JB.. She told me that he said that he wanted to tell mum something..bt he'll tell mum when she's back in PG.. Mum told me that if he says something ridiculous.. then mum will tell him that " U juz tell me how much u wan now..no matter how m i goin to borrow..I will come up with e sum for u.. I juz wan u to leave this family" Bt in e end.. he dint utter a word when mum's home ystday.. haha..

N back to Queensbay story..went thr wit jess aft b'fast with together with mei n her bb.. we've seperated from mei is bcoz that mei has to finish her project yesterday.. pity her..cant come with us.. n i hope that she's goin with us bt she said she cant..sighs.. oh well, so me n jess went to Queensbay..we went shopping for graphics tees..thus did manicure neh.. hehe for once in my life i did manicure..*blushing* bt hope that im goin for more la.. its quite cheap oso.. bt next time i go i wont want to do e French manicure.. coz when they paint e white on e nails..it looks fake on my fingers.. so..>.<>

Well aft e manicure, while we were walking, I notice this china man about 40++ n a girl abt 20++ sitting on a rest bench la..(in Queensbay e bench are everywhere) thus e girl quite pretty oso.. The china man was holding this girl's hands so tightly..E girl struggles a bit at 1st bt the china man die die dun wan to let go.. n I saw e girl's face,her face was like gone black black la..bt in e mean time in pain too.. sighs..pity that girl.. Nothing can b done..

SO today was a rainy day...Rain whole Day some more.. This morning, sueh sueh I hv to ride bike to work.. so I wore black shirt n wore short pants..rode all e way to work n guess wat I'm drench..

N e worse thing is, I dint bring any dry clothes to change.. so yea, I wore e wet shirt whole day.. so today a bit steam edi..Fever's coming.. I'm gg to sleep edi.. Good Nite everybody! peace out! ^_-v

04th June 2010 - Thursday @ 2121hours

Lately everything's good.. bt at times yea la..sure la got ups n downs..

OH well.. these few weeks I've been travelling up n down from the island..Cause I'm visiting a new type of chinese physician.. mummy said that my thyroid gland is swollen again after for so long. Bt I think that I'm ok d.. juz that I'm abit steam today.. mayb its becoz of running to e toilet a few times la.. hehe.. dunno what e heck did I ate made me to run to e toilet a few times today.. =(

Today I'm so depressed.. dunno y bt e sadness feeling is thr.. mayb I'm way too stressed out n work's way to pressuring for me to handle.. sometimes colleagues do bully me... I'm not so sure y..or where/when/what e heck did I offend them..When my aunt (Lady Boss)/ uncle (Boss) are not around..that's when all the problems will start.. Customers complaints (thru phone calls)..Drivers' problems n u name it..

So e two aunties (a.k.a. my colleagues) will like as in they're used to it.. "Jackie!! Phone!!!" one auntie will say.. "Jackie!!! call back e driver!! URGENT!!) " the other one would say.. n e most irritating is "Jackie!!! Urgent!! The customer wans e ANSWER NOW!! Come n answer the phone!" n I was like on e other line.. n sometimes they'll put me into a situation that I'll get in trouble with..ARGHH!! I'm not sure when I'll explode with all these..

Thus my family situation isn't that joyful.. so when Family situation + Work's situation = Death.. I juz wish that I'm dead.. N everything's solve..

Anyway, after ge's situation... Lately I think that he got better.. Thank you God!! ^^ bt I'm not really sure that he is.. coz everytime I asked him abt how's he..He'll tell me that he's ok.. Aft Alicia jie told me that ge's attitude got better.. ge's not chatting with me like he did before..During when Alicia jie told me that ge's attitude change as in turn cold towards her.. At that time..ge has been talking to me..abt his health situation.. N everything that he does.. it makes me to feel close to him.. Like how we are b4 when I'm young.. ^^ was happy then.. bt rite now.. sighs.. T.T

Sometimes.. I dunno what did I do wrong.. like as if i offended ge.. Coz he's like ermm.. when i asked him how's he.. he'll reply v short.. I dunno what did i do wrong.. He wans me to grow up.. He told me b4 aft when I get 21.. He'll let me b on my own.. as in to be independent.. Bt y? Yes i know that I have to be independent.. bt y cant we chat as in we're like friends? Like we used to b4? sighs.. i dunno..

Rite now.. i really hope that my current situation would turn 180 degrees upside down.. I really hope that everything turns out rite.. N my relationships with my friends n family would never change.. as I hope that we're close as we can be..

God please help me.. help me to change things around my life.. I really need u to teach and show me the rite way to go n the rite things to do..Please help T.T Amen..

13th May 2010 Wednesday @ 2123 hours

Today work has been moody at the start..colleagues sighs are making me frustrated becoz i juz forgot abt informing that there's a D/O to be taken from the hypermarket. it just that, she sighs n complaining abt my mood n all..saying it so loud..i think she intended to let my aunt hear abt my mood.. bt lucky my aunt didnt care abt her.. coz my aunt knows that my colleagues is one of a kind when she speaks or talk to someone..when she talks..she's like i dunno..sometimes makes ppl feel mad at her..

anyhow..these days have been worrying abt ge's condition..he's been coughin.thus coughing out blood.. he has been taking a new batch of medication to neutralize the chemical that he'd taken 2 years ago that affected his body defensive system..

i got to know this since last Sunday, when he smsed me, asking me whether i'd remember what i've promised him if should one day he's gone.. so im totally worried abt his health condition..sighs..he juz cant stop making me worried abt him..

Anyhow..today i've told Alicia jie abt his condition..she told me that ge has been moody these days..when she n susan ask him what did e doctor said..he told them its pretty good.. sometimes when they tried to talk to him to create a conversation, he only replied them "yea ok,yes, no, maybe.." so Alicia's quite mad at him for acting like this..to me, mayb ge don't wan them to worry abt him, he tried to keep this to himself..bt in e end..i "korek" (dig) everything up from him..=)

Mei n me, have been praying for ge's health..for it to be better n for him to live longer..n i know that God will do something special unto him for us..I really hope that our prayers will be heard..

Coz i really love n cherish ge as my brother..coz i dun hv a brother..

N wat's special abt ge is..he cares for us like nobody does, he loves n dotes on us like nobody does.. he gives us everything that we wanted.. n there's more abt him that is unforgettable.. whenever i think of him these days, n when he owaz says that one day he'll leave us..i cried..

I really hope for the best for him n i will keep praying for him..

Dear God, You are the Highest above all.. You are the Incredible n Miracle Healer of All.. Please cure my brother's condition.. Whatever that is in his body that have been making him weak..cure him.. Dear God, I beg for your mercy n grace..Forgive him for the sins he's done..and May the Blood of Your Son,Jesus Christ protect him from all harm and anxiety..No matter what are the consequences may be for me..im willing to take it .because he deserve to live longer..Dear God Most Gracious, cure him n make him feel better like never before.. Thank you very much..I make this prayer through Christ our Lord..Amen.

11th May 2010 - Tuesday @ 2103hours

Days has passed n now its time for blogging..tee hee ^^

well incredible thing happen, what i've wanted came true.. ge talk to jess ald, mum talk to jess ald..Woohoo! so happy..

Sunday aft mass, we went over to granny's..so went to pick grandma up n 2nd grand aunty (who just lives next door), aft that we went to 3rd grand aunty's home..to visit her.. when we were at 2nd grand aunt' home picking her up..jess speech was so rude to grandma..no ned to fight about a door with grandma rite?? sighs..dissapointed in her..

so after visiting here n thr, we got home..so we were getting ready to go out shopping..the 3 of us,, since it has been a long time since we've went out together.. when we were ready i told jess "Lets Go! but hv to wait for mei's friend to arrvie 1st" jess said "ok, but we are taking mum's car, dunno whether my car got petrol o not" .. after this, an arguement started..dad heard her saying that she doubt her car got petrol n all..all e foul words came out from his mouth n all. i tolerate.. n i told myself, if he says another word again, i would tell him " IF u don't like it, then move out! we don't need u" bt then mei's friend came..so he stopped e arguement n went out slamming the chair..

when we were out, im worried abt mum...abt goin half way to the mall..we turn back..

i don't know what is he mumuring abt all e time with his mouth..im not sure whether its good or bad..for all i know is that i don't like it at all..

01st May 2010 - Saturday @ 2100 hours

Date : 28th April 2010 - Thursday

Time Started : 8pm

- Today, Esther sms-ed me ask me whether im free to go out @nite or not..n i said yea..she said she wans2 go out as in to meet up n all as she's on sem break but goin back on e next day,friday..sighs she's owaz last minute de..haha =). Anyway, i had a hard time to get the car to go out but in e end i did.. Esther sms-ed me if we can meet Edmond in SCIC, around 10pm coz she said he's got something to do in church..so i said sure

I met them around 10.30pm there..we've chatted for a few mins,then we went to Cita Rasa (I think its spell this way) in Sbrg Jaya. so we've chatted until we've chatted to a topic where Eddy chose his gf. He said that he like two girls then one, he kept mum at 1st, 2nd Su Ling (his current gf)..so he said that he was confused wit e 1st girl that he liked. Doesnt know whether she wans them to b a couple or not..in e end he realized that Su Ling was the one..

Then me n Esther went n kepoh n ask him who's that 1st girl he liked.. Then he said that me n Esther knew her very well..n she's chinese too.. so i asked him who.. he ask do u really wan2 know..i said yea y not..then e answer came.. he said " Its You La!" I was stunned then..coz i dint know anything abt this..though b4 we've smsed like buddys n all..aft he had his gf, then yea we stopped messaging each other.and e next thing is, he said im owaz single n all, whenever he asks me "got bf ald not?" n i answered no. He hurt me by saying, i owaz "sell high" n he asked me how much did i wan?

Aft hearing it.. i pretend that nothing happen n get on to e next topic.. in my heart, i felt embarassed n guilty that when he said that he liked me b4 n all.. i dint wan him to feel that n all..but i was hurt when he told me off like that..sighs..anyhow i do hv the urge to leave..but in e end, we've got on chatted n all, then a few of their friends came..n i was left alone sitting thr like a wood..it was like 2am then..we left the place around 2.30am.. Said my goodbyes to Esther n aft Edmond lead me e way to the highway home..i speed off... i was so upset then.. i drove pretty fast then..lucky no cars around..so i've reach home around 3am..wanted to sleep bt cant.. was thinking of e situation happen thr..but in e end i slept off aft a while..

Date : Today

Time : 9 am

- Hmm... woke up at 7.30am today, sms-ed Silvie n Piey Piey around 8am to confirm whether they r awake or not..so confirm when they r awake,i prepared myself n got out to fetch them.. My nose is still blocked then..so went to 7-11 to get myself a 100 plus.. then went to fetch Piey Piey 1st..then aft Piey,Silvie.. so the 3 of us went over to e island for a Dim-Sum for b'fast.. then later we went to Gurney Plaza which now called Cor-- something something..forgot d.. hehe..so @ Gurney we walked to look for Piey's shoes..but in e end found 1 but no size haha.. so aft walking for like an hour or two..

We went to Queensbay Mall to shop again..haha..but the shop that we are heading to, are under renovation, so sighs..she cant buy her shoes d..haha... then we went to Dragon something something to hv "Xiao Long Bao"!! ^^..n WOW the queue was long..the current number called then was 53 n guess wat is our number is..78!! O_o but then it was fast..we've waited for like 30 mins or so..we was so anxious while waiting for our no. to b called..when it was 77..but e person holding e no. dint appear, so we were waiting for the guy to call our numbers..Piey was wondering why lar it took so long for him to call our no. haha when the guy called Piey was so excited,she told e guy, we were waiting for him to call our no. for a long time edi..we all laugh n went in..

Aft walking for so long,my feet starts to hurt..i've got a blister under my toe.. =( it hurts when i walk..lucky, we've got to rest while waiting for our no. n while we were in e restaurant..e Xiao Long Bao was superb i shall say.. aft that Piey got a call from her sis saying that she wans Piey to help her buy some snacks n all.. we were in a rush then, coz piey has to b home around 3.30pm but it was 3pm edi..so Piey went in while we wait for her..we've waited like 20 mins..then we saw Piey..she was complaining abt e counter, e service person dunno how to scan n all..sighs..so we went on rushin to the car park, but out of a sudden Piey said she wans to go n take a look in "Nicole" to look for a shoe, she said if she dint buy a thing for herself she'll die.. so me n Silvie laugh n went with her. So she picked her shoe, but the colour she picked at 1st got her size, but she wanted to pick either black or white..n guess wat..no stock avail for her. Got no choice, she has to choose e colour that she picked 1st.. haha

So at end of e day i managed to get her home around 4.30pm..hehe 1 hour later than expected..

Anyway we had fun rite..bt ouch! my toe-ey hurts.. i've got a blister on my toe-ey.. =(

28th April 2010 - Wednesday @ 2225hrs

sighss...on "sick leave" these days..can't really write cuz im having a flu..sneezing n hving running nose all e time..

its all started on monday, headache n drowsiness.. i was working then, i tahan sampai tak boleh tahan edi, then i ask for a half-day's leave..well its my first time taking an MC during office hours..when i was leaving the office i told my boss that im goin home, he said one word "HUH!!"

the worst thing is, i hv to ride e bike back home..b4 e journey back home,i prayed so that i can reach home safely with e drowsiness goin on.. so went home,changed n straight to bed.. slept from 5-7.30pm..then woke up,has dinner n 10pm continue my sleep again..guess i need more rest..

then ystday i slept around 8pm?? i think so..until this morning..haha..anyhow no matter how early i slept,when im at work or riding bike to work..im still sleepy though..guess i need much more rest than wat i've expected..goin to b a pig soon haha..

anyway work hasnt been stressful these days..received a sms from my friend, she asks me out for a shopping spree..bt then come to think of it..im broke..haha..anyhow juz to hang out wif friends its a thing to relax..hmm..wanted to buy DVDs but then dunno where..

e last time im in jb..ge said that he'll bring me to his friend's DVD's shop..but then dint bring,him n i ended up sleeping e whole day thru (sort of) hahaha..^^rite now there are a few movies that i havent watched,guess buying DVDs are worth it ei? haha

anyhow..im tired..guess i need more rest again?? haha nites every1!