OH well.. these few weeks I've been travelling up n down from the island..Cause I'm visiting a new type of chinese physician.. mummy said that my thyroid gland is swollen again after for so long. Bt I think that I'm ok d.. juz that I'm abit steam today.. mayb its becoz of running to e toilet a few times la.. hehe.. dunno what e heck did I ate made me to run to e toilet a few times today.. =(
Today I'm so depressed.. dunno y bt e sadness feeling is thr.. mayb I'm way too stressed out n work's way to pressuring for me to handle.. sometimes colleagues do bully me... I'm not so sure y..or where/when/what e heck did I offend them..When my aunt (Lady Boss)/ uncle (Boss) are not around..that's when all the problems will start.. Customers complaints (thru phone calls)..Drivers' problems n u name it..
So e two aunties (a.k.a. my colleagues) will like as in they're used to it.. "Jackie!! Phone!!!" one auntie will say.. "Jackie!!! call back e driver!! URGENT!!) " the other one would say.. n e most irritating is "Jackie!!! Urgent!! The customer wans e ANSWER NOW!! Come n answer the phone!" n I was like on e other line.. n sometimes they'll put me into a situation that I'll get in trouble with..ARGHH!! I'm not sure when I'll explode with all these..
Thus my family situation isn't that joyful.. so when Family situation + Work's situation = Death.. I juz wish that I'm dead.. N everything's solve..
Anyway, after ge's situation... Lately I think that he got better.. Thank you God!! ^^ bt I'm not really sure that he is.. coz everytime I asked him abt how's he..He'll tell me that he's ok.. Aft Alicia jie told me that ge's attitude got better.. ge's not chatting with me like he did before..During when Alicia jie told me that ge's attitude change as in turn cold towards her.. At that time..ge has been talking to me..abt his health situation.. N everything that he does.. it makes me to feel close to him.. Like how we are b4 when I'm young.. ^^ was happy then.. bt rite now.. sighs.. T.T
Sometimes.. I dunno what did I do wrong.. like as if i offended ge.. Coz he's like ermm.. when i asked him how's he.. he'll reply v short.. I dunno what did i do wrong.. He wans me to grow up.. He told me b4 aft when I get 21.. He'll let me b on my own.. as in to be independent.. Bt y? Yes i know that I have to be independent.. bt y cant we chat as in we're like friends? Like we used to b4? sighs.. i dunno..
Rite now.. i really hope that my current situation would turn 180 degrees upside down.. I really hope that everything turns out rite.. N my relationships with my friends n family would never change.. as I hope that we're close as we can be..
God please help me.. help me to change things around my life.. I really need u to teach and show me the rite way to go n the rite things to do..Please help T.T Amen..
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