02 March 2009 @ 4.00pm

today..i've done something... he asked mum for RM 10, when she was still sleeping (with me).. then he went out to fetch mei mei n da jie to school n work... i saw my mum putting RM 15 on the table..n i took it off there in front of her..
she asked me to put it back...she caled n reminded me about the money again...

so i did... i've put RM 10 n i put RM 5 somewhere on the table as well...
i made the RM 10 to look obvious..so tat he cant find the RM 5..
he came home n called mum asking whr did she put the money...

when i got out from home, he went looking for e money...
he called mum again... scolded her...asking n demanding for that RM 5..
asking where is it... mum said maybe i took it...for i needed the money coz i dun hv money on me..
he said she's working..working until there's no money left?? my mum said she gotta pay for alot of stuff u think that she got the allowance for herself??

my mum scolded me for being stubborn...saying tat i've got the same attitude as him...
but frankly, i dun... im standing up already... im gonna go against him already..its time...

17 Feb 2009 ; 10.10am

I've plan a lot of things ystday...im planning to catch him red-handed...with my friend's help...
bt come to think of it... it was STUPID...cause im leaving my sis home alone...i didnt think of her safety at home...
so i have to give up on my plans...

last sunday... when we came home from shopping for groceries...the bathroom light was blured for a few days but its still in good condition...he asked us to change it... immediately when he saw us bought the light bulb...he didnt offer himself to change the bulb instead he went out for a smoke..expecting us girls to do the job...n we did...lil sis said... he's not a man...

he tot tat he's the man of e house..bt now mummy is e man of e house...paying all the bills...i pity her..when she said she owed her company a few thousand dollars...i was thinking of giving her some more money to pay her company back...bt i dun think i can do tat...coz..my sister sometimes borrows money as much as a few hundred dollars...
like last month...borrow 550 for eon bank c.card... as the minimum payment for e card is a thousand plus... then again borrowed 300 for her valentine's day gift for her bf...sighs.... BANKRUPT LA SAYA NI...

10 Feb 2009 : 12.20pm

Yesterday... he call n asks mum whether did she took his wallet in his drawer?? mum said 'no'... then when i came home with lil sis... he asks us.. the same question he asked mum...we too said no...
he told me n mei mei not to pretend tat we dunno... we didnt reply...then he went out...

later then da jie came home... we've talk about the problem occur before she came home... i've told them to keep a watch out for he'll come home anytime... but they dint listen.. they kept on talking...little do we know...he was outside...after we've finsh chit chatting...hmm...da jie's face went pale...when she saw his car outside... now we r hoping tat he didnt hear anything...
if he does.. its ok... i'll put the blame on me.. i dun mind whether he hits me or torture me...its juz tat i wan him out of the house...

to mei mei...if mum n dad divorce..she said she might b following him..cause seeing him so pity...
if she does.. she wouldnt know how mum will feel...mum's gonna be broken hearted... cause she's mum's favourite...
to me if he's out of the house..with no income..n he still doesn wan2 work.. im gonna do like wat they did b4 for my grandfather..give him allowance every month... cause he's still my father...

Wat can i do more?? Although he's still my father.. but wat he do/did/does is totally ridiculous.. For now im juz hoping that there's increment for me...this year..or else i cant do anything about this problem..come to think of it.. he doesn like me a bit as his daughter...coz..wat i've been doin all these years to him.. makes him hates me more...
and wat he has been doin all these years to mum n sisters made me hate him more until the kettle burst,burn n melted...

i know im a cold blooded person...for doin something bad against him... but still the same reason..wat he did to my mum...i will pay him back twice of anything he did to mum...now im jus hoping that he would eventually get out of this house forever...

Its been a long time...

Its been a long time since i've wrote a blog... juz updated one.. now for current events...

hmmm... working has been tiring lately...but still relaxing...
everyday when im on my way back home... how i wish to see my sis smile at me when i come home...
how i wish to see my father is not around...how i wish that i won't see him everyday...
im hoping tat he'll b gone for good... i knoe wat has been goin on.. i can see..

im not afraid of him now... i dunno why m i afraid of him for the passed years...
he gave me a last warning... like i said in my blog... to me if he hits me.. i'll will b on my way to d hospital n report it to the police...its wat my mum taught me to do if he do so...

neway... CNY was fun...bt still there r some days tat i have to work because of some big companies...but still fun... no need to worry too much about all d delivery been goin on..aft working go home sleep... nice CNY week...

sometime im worried.. about my mum.. i dunno how she feels..just wan her to b happy...

The Last Warning...

hmmm... its really gona b one memorable day...

while i was on my way to the bathroom... after my mum left for work... he gave me a last warning...
saying " you think that i dont wat have u been doing behind my back... talk bad stuffs behind my back... telling ur mum wat i've been doing...listen n listen carefully im giving u a last warning"after he said all those.. he went out...then i've started thinking of..wat m i to b afraid of... wat im doin is right... telling my mum wat has he been doing all these days... i've have my rights...

so im jus hoping tat my mum will hold her word that she'll divorce him...im hoping that my mum wont go soft on him...

damn ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im so angry!!!! today i went to do passport at the imigration...
then my birth cert no. got problem...coz there a guy/girl out there got the same birth cert number as same as mine...i told my mum about it...n i told my aunt tt im gonna b off today...

so my mum went n told my aunt about the problem....

then the imigration ask me to go @ 3pm...to get my passport...
about 12pm..my colleague used my aunt's hp to call me up..
then i told her im in my cousin's house for a rest..
n then my colleague pass the hp to my aunt..
my aunt ask me where am i.n i told her the same thing...
as for the passport is coming out @ 3pm..she asks y dun wan to go to office 1st?

i was thinking of how to say it to her...
n then again she pass me back to my colleague..
when i was talking to my colleague, my aunt eventually told som1 in the background 'that doing a passport oso wan to off...' im so damn mad!!!!!!!!! totali!!! its like i've got no rights to take a day off....!!!! sigh... i dunno wat to do right nw...quit or make my face a bit thicker n go to work tomorrow...?? sigh......!!!!!!

29th July 2008 @ 2302hrs

ARGHH!!!!

jus letting out my anger at work today...
i knw tt im in the wrong bt still...
its juz too much work for me to do..

dealing with all the Delivery orders,the bills cant b done in juz morning!!
i need to do it the whole day...
does anybody knw tt??!!!
n i have to update for the LG company tt im doin...
PODs,BILLs...its a lot!!damn lot!
im trying to do as fast as i could to update for that STUPID GUY ho works in the operation dept!!!
IDIOT!! ARGHHH!! by juz thinking about it i cud get relli mad now...
i knw ppl do things fast..
bt i wan to do it my own way...
n i wan to do it on my own...
so that no ppl can look down on me....

so like today i haven been updating the PODs for a week...
n im trying to update for them...relli...
bt by doin the D/Os onli it took me a day...
for lorry drivers came in different time....
i juz hope that tt STUPID GUY come down n try to b in my situation n see...
its sure to b the same thing happen...

today the STUPID GUY call asking for PODs...
well yea im goin to update for him eversince i've done my 1st session job...
then my aunt came n kacau...
i knw she's mad tt i dint update for the 'BIG' company..
im trying to do it...
she came n said 'U GO N DO UR D/OS IM NOW IN CHARGE OF THESE PODs'
i was like..WAD!!!!! u told me to do this n now u're telling me to do another thing??!!!
i knw wat my aunt was expecting..
bt u cant expect me to b somebody elses like her ex-staff....
who is pretty dilligent at her work..do things faster..willing to bring it home..n alll...
i cant b like her..
coz im me...i cant change who i m.i knw tt i work slow..bt im trying to change..im relli trying...
n she's expecting me to b like her...its ridiculous...!!!

on another topic....
st anne's feast day r over....reli sad..that we hv to wait for another year till it comes again...
on the 26th which is the procession day...i met my friends..franklin,edmond(s),thomas n a few more...
relli miss talking wit them a lot...i hope to see them soon...hmmm i wonder when.....