29th July 2008 @ 2302hrs

ARGHH!!!!

jus letting out my anger at work today...
i knw tt im in the wrong bt still...
its juz too much work for me to do..

dealing with all the Delivery orders,the bills cant b done in juz morning!!
i need to do it the whole day...
does anybody knw tt??!!!
n i have to update for the LG company tt im doin...
PODs,BILLs...its a lot!!damn lot!
im trying to do as fast as i could to update for that STUPID GUY ho works in the operation dept!!!
IDIOT!! ARGHHH!! by juz thinking about it i cud get relli mad now...
i knw ppl do things fast..
bt i wan to do it my own way...
n i wan to do it on my own...
so that no ppl can look down on me....

so like today i haven been updating the PODs for a week...
n im trying to update for them...relli...
bt by doin the D/Os onli it took me a day...
for lorry drivers came in different time....
i juz hope that tt STUPID GUY come down n try to b in my situation n see...
its sure to b the same thing happen...

today the STUPID GUY call asking for PODs...
well yea im goin to update for him eversince i've done my 1st session job...
then my aunt came n kacau...
i knw she's mad tt i dint update for the 'BIG' company..
im trying to do it...
she came n said 'U GO N DO UR D/OS IM NOW IN CHARGE OF THESE PODs'
i was like..WAD!!!!! u told me to do this n now u're telling me to do another thing??!!!
i knw wat my aunt was expecting..
bt u cant expect me to b somebody elses like her ex-staff....
who is pretty dilligent at her work..do things faster..willing to bring it home..n alll...
i cant b like her..
coz im me...i cant change who i m.i knw tt i work slow..bt im trying to change..im relli trying...
n she's expecting me to b like her...its ridiculous...!!!

on another topic....
st anne's feast day r over....reli sad..that we hv to wait for another year till it comes again...
on the 26th which is the procession day...i met my friends..franklin,edmond(s),thomas n a few more...
relli miss talking wit them a lot...i hope to see them soon...hmmm i wonder when.....