The Last Warning...

hmmm... its really gona b one memorable day...

while i was on my way to the bathroom... after my mum left for work... he gave me a last warning...
saying " you think that i dont wat have u been doing behind my back... talk bad stuffs behind my back... telling ur mum wat i've been doing...listen n listen carefully im giving u a last warning"after he said all those.. he went out...then i've started thinking of..wat m i to b afraid of... wat im doin is right... telling my mum wat has he been doing all these days... i've have my rights...

so im jus hoping tat my mum will hold her word that she'll divorce him...im hoping that my mum wont go soft on him...

damn ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im so angry!!!! today i went to do passport at the imigration...
then my birth cert no. got problem...coz there a guy/girl out there got the same birth cert number as same as mine...i told my mum about it...n i told my aunt tt im gonna b off today...

so my mum went n told my aunt about the problem....

then the imigration ask me to go @ 3pm...to get my passport...
about 12pm..my colleague used my aunt's hp to call me up..
then i told her im in my cousin's house for a rest..
n then my colleague pass the hp to my aunt..
my aunt ask me where am i.n i told her the same thing...
as for the passport is coming out @ 3pm..she asks y dun wan to go to office 1st?

i was thinking of how to say it to her...
n then again she pass me back to my colleague..
when i was talking to my colleague, my aunt eventually told som1 in the background 'that doing a passport oso wan to off...' im so damn mad!!!!!!!!! totali!!! its like i've got no rights to take a day off....!!!! sigh... i dunno wat to do right nw...quit or make my face a bit thicker n go to work tomorrow...?? sigh......!!!!!!

29th July 2008 @ 2302hrs

ARGHH!!!!

jus letting out my anger at work today...
i knw tt im in the wrong bt still...
its juz too much work for me to do..

dealing with all the Delivery orders,the bills cant b done in juz morning!!
i need to do it the whole day...
does anybody knw tt??!!!
n i have to update for the LG company tt im doin...
PODs,BILLs...its a lot!!damn lot!
im trying to do as fast as i could to update for that STUPID GUY ho works in the operation dept!!!
IDIOT!! ARGHHH!! by juz thinking about it i cud get relli mad now...
i knw ppl do things fast..
bt i wan to do it my own way...
n i wan to do it on my own...
so that no ppl can look down on me....

so like today i haven been updating the PODs for a week...
n im trying to update for them...relli...
bt by doin the D/Os onli it took me a day...
for lorry drivers came in different time....
i juz hope that tt STUPID GUY come down n try to b in my situation n see...
its sure to b the same thing happen...

today the STUPID GUY call asking for PODs...
well yea im goin to update for him eversince i've done my 1st session job...
then my aunt came n kacau...
i knw she's mad tt i dint update for the 'BIG' company..
im trying to do it...
she came n said 'U GO N DO UR D/OS IM NOW IN CHARGE OF THESE PODs'
i was like..WAD!!!!! u told me to do this n now u're telling me to do another thing??!!!
i knw wat my aunt was expecting..
bt u cant expect me to b somebody elses like her ex-staff....
who is pretty dilligent at her work..do things faster..willing to bring it home..n alll...
i cant b like her..
coz im me...i cant change who i m.i knw tt i work slow..bt im trying to change..im relli trying...
n she's expecting me to b like her...its ridiculous...!!!

on another topic....
st anne's feast day r over....reli sad..that we hv to wait for another year till it comes again...
on the 26th which is the procession day...i met my friends..franklin,edmond(s),thomas n a few more...
relli miss talking wit them a lot...i hope to see them soon...hmmm i wonder when.....

21st July 2008 @ 2241hrs

hmm...st anne's feats day has started..n im helping out during weekends...this year aint gonna b the same as b4..as this year i join my sisters in to help out..if not my mum will think tt im gonna mix with the guys in st anne's...

well yea...st anne's church gave me bad memories..bt there's good ones too...
as for now..i felt tt my friends are avoiding me than being wit me...
im looking 4 sum1 to tok to..bt still nobody is thr when i relli need them...
hmm...seems to b lonely this year...

the guy n his mother whom i dislike...they're still there helping out during st anne's...bt evry1 is saying tt the guy is leaving 4 outstation like during june...its seems like he's lying...goin around saying tt he's goin outstation 4 his studies... i think not! he's juz fooling around to make him look better in church...

this month seems to b a bad luck month...
the company tt i work for..got break in twice n its not long ago...
hmm..i wonder n im angry why la did they take the goods tt im handling??!!! although im not the 1 who arrange the lorries bt still im the one who's doin the billing!!! how am i goin to say to the 'upstairs'?? headache headache...y not sum other brands? y mine... sighs.......

work has been hard for me...im handling all the D/Os...those are important things if i lost 1 of the D/os im gonna lost one of my cost....by then sure kena scoldings from auntie n uncle...whom are the boss of mine....everyday i have to open D/os,mark D/Os,write wat goods are from KL,type listings, filing those D/Os...n i cant keep updating my electronics PODs,billings n all...coz all these D/Os are the 1st ones tt i hv to do finish b4 i cud do sumthing elses...bt still opening the D/Os are coming in...pretty fast...as im working in a transportation company...
as my auntie said tt i handle all the D/Os stuff bt i wonder y m i still handling the billings?
like as if they cant do it ..as we have a billing person...
i juz hope tt i can do things much faster than wat im doin now...
any tips?

14th July 2008 @ 2300hrs

hmm...dunno wat to say..bt felt like writing out of a sudden...

hmm..ever since i started working...i've got no time to spend wif my friends n all..coz i know tt some of them are bz with work...studies...
long aft u knw it..ur relationship wit tt friend is dull...plain..got nothing to share wit him/her...dunno wat to say nor chat...

today's work is hectic bcoz last sat is a public holiday 4 penang state...i tot tt thr's a replacement on Monday...n then i say to myself wat m i thinking its work not school...haha..

as 4 friend...ystday i went out 4 b'fast wit da jie n then i saw my friend's car whom he said tt his car cant b start aft he hasnt been driving 4 a long time...
i ask him how's his car? he said its still the same...cant b used...4 nw i dunno y he lied..bt i think tt he got gf or sumthing la..tt's y he's like avoiding to go out wif me to chat like we use to...

nowadays...its hard to find a friend that is trustable..honest n all u need for a friend..
its relli hard...i wanted to talk to sum1..bt still cant find any1...sms..phone calls...i dun even knw y m i holding a hp for?nobody looks for me... or calls me on my hp at times...

u knw...its relli hard for me to find friends nowadays...coz working all day long..
cant make new friends..or meet them...im like an indoor girl ald...not an outgoin one like b4..
how i hope tt i can go back to jb or even find a friend whom i can chat n tell stuff wit..

boring day....12th July 2008 @ 1436hrs

hmmm...its goin to b a boring day for me...although i still hv to run sum errands for my mum bt still bored...

u're thinking home alone is fun bt still if u dun hv any friends to accompany u..its bored...
see the bad side of staying single...no teman....

parents are in hatyai..lil sis is in camp...sis went out wif her bf..me? home alone...watching tv,surfing the net...
now i find internet boring cz thr's nothing to do...no fun internet...hahax....
today is a hoiday 4 penang state so...malls are goin to b cramp...pack up wit ppls....
now...im damn hungry..n i still cant find any1 to accompany me for lunch n chat...

oh...how i wish tt i cud get out....

The days i've spend - 05th April 2008 @ 0020hours

Hmm..it has been a long time ever since i write a blog...

i hv been bz lately wif work n life...

last month ,June... me n my fly hv gone down to genting highlands...
wow its my 1st trip thr...i was so excited at 1st....
bt when i reach thr..i find tt there's nothing to do..
coz its raining on the 2nd day...sob sob cant go out to the theme park n play..no fun...
all i could do is watch my sisters play arcade games....for i dun play much arcade..i only puzzle n brain training games that i like...later tt i found out...i find nothing fun in genting except for the theme park tt i dint go to..im hoping tt i cud b thr again to hv fun in the oudoor theme park..haha....

working has been hectic for me..customers,drivers,colleagues...and most of all my relatives...
i've finally realise that how working life is...n how hard to earn a dollar...
now the economy is getting higher bt not in progress of upgrading..
take a look at the petrol for instance is getting higher by the day...its twice the price tt we usuali hv to put in...sigh....when will this come to an end..hmmmmm...i wonder...

my faith in God is getting poorer by the day...coz i haven been praying hard to Him Everyday...
nope..i have to say im lazy..ppl say tt my prayers are strong..bt i dun think that my prayers are strong enough...ever since i dun pray everyday...i dunno how to pray to God..

St Anne's feast day is coming...n i can help out during then...coz my mum let me to...hahahaha!! damn happy...bt still my sisters are coming along..no fun no fun...haha...yea i love to get back in the activities in church (st anne;s) bt still its difficult for me to work for sum1 tt i dun like...
the nightmares on wat happen in st anne's is unforgettable...i still cant get rid of it...i hope one day that these nightmares will dissapear..

all my problems have been kept in my poor heart for a long time..hmmm...i think i 've forgotten most of the problems tt i had in my days....

for now...i do hope tt i could find a course tt suits me n wat i like...im troubled for this...i dunno wat to go for...i hope tt there's an offer for me which includes scholarships n good teachers...haha..i knw its difficult for me to find one..bt hey! there's a way of solution to every problem...all u hv to do is think carefully...