17th Aug 2012-Friday @1208hrs

Just yesterday, my aunt was send for her cremation... it has been days that I had not cried for her. I have been strong for my cousins.. Told them not to be sad not to cry in front of her, as it was a regulation from the monk. Before she was send in, I heard a voice.. Talking to me.. It struck me that it was my aunt.. She told me to be strong and take care of mummy.. she ask for my mum's help to take care of her kids because my uncle's busy, thus ask me to let my uncle know that, not to be sad.. give up some time for the kids.. spend time with them. She told me that she's going to a wonderful place, ask me not to cry anymore.. after I heard what she said... I cried n cried n cried.. I have been strong my cousins, being there with them.. staying up overnight to accompany my aunt for the past few days.. In the mean time, Bert has given me headaches n headaches all over.. saying the things that I already know.. he's like giving me pressure that i couldnt imagine. Talking to him was like talking to a log.. I have already told him times n times again that my aunt had a funeral.. And I am busy with it.. I cant think of anything else. I was just like STOP Bert STOP! I had enough!I told Bert off n thats it for me now. Spend the whole day with my cousins yesterday, being there for them when they need me.Although I slept off on the couch! :) Well, Jj has been talking to him.. JJ talk to him basically everyday.. HE call JJ when JJ asked him to. which made JJ smile.. He accompanied JJ throughout the whole thing.He's back in his country in which its harder to communicate with him.. Just emails n emails n emails... Sometimes JJ kept looking at JJ's phone to see whether has he reply JJ or not.. When there is an email from him.. JJ's heart basically jumping with joy,, n JJ automatically smiled.