31st Aug 2012-Friday@1125hrs

I had the sudden urge to quit my current job... What happened yesterday,what happened the day before.. Was really making me upset.. Got scolded for nothing.. Because of helping the vendors,to wrap some bread for the next day's b'fast service.. Got scalded by hot water.. Sometimes,i just dont understand Malaysians n Foreigners... They took/ordered it from the buffet/kitchen... They just ate it a little bit.. N left quite an amount of food.. Was clearing their table.. Carrying it to the pantry to have it clear... Was hit by some vendor.. N basically... Everything dropped n the gravy being splashed all over me.. She nvr said any sorry and she just walked off.. I was almost crying... I stopped myself from everything.. N i wipe myself with a cloth... Got my spare uniform.. N i changed.. Was walking fast throughout the lounge.. Wet, by curry gravy,veg gravy..soy sauce gravy... I pull myself back... I continued working... Im lucky that i hv such wonderful team.. With the 3 of them.. They made me smile n laugh back.. But we are gonna split soon.. 2nd Sept is our last day working together...:( i want my teammates back!!! Anyway,Happy Independence Day Malaysia.

17th Aug 2012-Friday @1208hrs

Just yesterday, my aunt was send for her cremation... it has been days that I had not cried for her. I have been strong for my cousins.. Told them not to be sad not to cry in front of her, as it was a regulation from the monk. Before she was send in, I heard a voice.. Talking to me.. It struck me that it was my aunt.. She told me to be strong and take care of mummy.. she ask for my mum's help to take care of her kids because my uncle's busy, thus ask me to let my uncle know that, not to be sad.. give up some time for the kids.. spend time with them. She told me that she's going to a wonderful place, ask me not to cry anymore.. after I heard what she said... I cried n cried n cried.. I have been strong my cousins, being there with them.. staying up overnight to accompany my aunt for the past few days.. In the mean time, Bert has given me headaches n headaches all over.. saying the things that I already know.. he's like giving me pressure that i couldnt imagine. Talking to him was like talking to a log.. I have already told him times n times again that my aunt had a funeral.. And I am busy with it.. I cant think of anything else. I was just like STOP Bert STOP! I had enough!I told Bert off n thats it for me now. Spend the whole day with my cousins yesterday, being there for them when they need me.Although I slept off on the couch! :) Well, Jj has been talking to him.. JJ talk to him basically everyday.. HE call JJ when JJ asked him to. which made JJ smile.. He accompanied JJ throughout the whole thing.He's back in his country in which its harder to communicate with him.. Just emails n emails n emails... Sometimes JJ kept looking at JJ's phone to see whether has he reply JJ or not.. When there is an email from him.. JJ's heart basically jumping with joy,, n JJ automatically smiled.

4th August 2012-Saturday @1237 hrs

HElllooooooo!!! I actually wanted to post this for a long time..! But i wrote my last draft almost till the end.. and *poof!* the whole thing was a goner!!! then I decide to write it another day... :)) Well, I just want to update my status currently. Things may not be the same as before,cause work changed n friends gone not really gone gone but gone like they're not there with me.So sad! SO currently, because of MAS "financial problems" + "excess crews"they cant accept/include Firefly crews to be in flying roster.. So we end up being in? the Golden Lounge.. I have been working there for like a month plus now.. problems keeps haunting me,plus the stress for this is overwhelming. Working in the lounge is like working in a restaurant whereby you have to collect plates,arrange things, etc etc as the vendors (the original golden lounge workers) are gonna be gone by the end of this month, guess what, it was the management who force them to leave. First thing, i dont understand why they asked them to leave as we need them? Plus who's gonna do the lifting n cleaning? The management asked us to be a PR around the lounge.. but the next thing you know, all these things happen. For all that I could say is STUPID! SO when the vendors are gone, n if we dont pick up some informations now from them i think we would be helpless..! Colleagues are leaving the company,vendors are leaving n what does that make us? short of crew for sure! well,I'm quite sad that my expats pilots friends are leaving..! the time pass quite fast! They're leaving me!!!! :(( its quite sad. Everybodys'leaving... I wish that they could be here for me!!! They've been the best thing that happened in my life..tho they;re guys but yea! They are the reasons that made my life in kl the awesome thing that happen! I just hope that they'll find good jobs somewhere out there! Im quite sad that Peter is leaving me.. He has been the closest guy that Im with for a year plus now. He's leaving too! :'(( Im here wishing the best to you honey! I hope that you'll be accepted to a great company who treats u well and make the flying experience fun for u! I'll see you when i see u! But please come back to see me!!! :) i think that's it for now.. got to go.. :'(