26th October 2010 - Tuesday @1412hours

Well, I'm writing secretly during working hours..hehehe..

So I've decide to let God to make this job decisions for me.. I've prayed before I send my resume so that God will help me to decide whether I should take up the offer or not.

If the company rejected my application means God doesn't want me to leave here bt to stay with my family.. If the company accepted my application means I have to go..

To tell you the truth,I'm freaking nervous about this.. Dunno what are God's plans for me..arghhh.. this is killing me..

Well, if he decides that I'm staying, I would want to change my job field. For me to get out from my aunt's company n go experience and learn some new stuffs n make new friends.. N so new frustrations.. I would want to take up the challenge rather than staying in this safe n comfy home...

N one more thing, I've just received a call from Starbucks Jusco asking me to go for an interview today later in the evening..hmmm i wonder how would everything turn out.. So let's hope for the best then!

21st Oct 2010 - Thursday @ 2229hours - Decisions... =(

Decisions Decisions Decisions...

NOw its really hard for me to make a decent n correct decision.. hmm
Dont y'all sometimes feel its hard to make one simply decision even when its really enquires a simple answer like yes or no?

Well, normally it wouldnt be that hard bt then this time its realli hard..
Alicia jie, msn me told me that there's a job offer in JB for me. She ask whether that I wanna take it up or not? The company name is Mei Ban, actually can google it n check it out.. Hmm the jobs offers higher than my current salary now.. I realli wish that i could go n experience new things.. But the thing is...

If I decide to Go.. I hv to leave behind my lil sis and mum.. N thus, the things that are happening here.. a.k.a. St Anne's Novena n Feast.Friends like Essie,Grace,Mark,Noel and especially Franklin,my best buddy in the whole wide world.. n thus it goes to all of my church's friends. Well, for some things sacrifices hv to be made.. The benefits are, I get to go out n explore a whole new working world, lead a new leaf there..

If I decided NOT to go.. I hv to turn down the delicious offer.. N get back to reality.. Bt my plans are, to search for a new job in Penang Island which is closer to my home..to work n stay in Penang.. I realli need some answers.. God please help me on makin the decisions!! PLease God!

Lately.. Mum's angry with me.. She said that I've changed aft I joined church choir.. hmm.. I dunno y n where hv i change.. Bt what i know that I've owaz been myself.. n nobody elses..
Mayb mum's worried abt me goin out whole day.. n she juz get to spend the time with me during weekends where I've been out.. I think that she thinks that she's losing me.. Bt I really wanna tell her that, I've not changed abit.. Yes I've been goin out lately with friends.. Bt I know what I've been doin n my activities are clean rather than goin to pubs n clubs..
I'm out wif friends as in to escape a part of reality n enjoy myself..

Sometimes I dun wish that I'm here.. bt I hv to face the music.. So God I really need u to help me to make my decisions.. Please provide me some of the answers that I　need and that I won't regret making that decision..

13th Oct 2010 - Wednesday @ aftnn

A Day at the Beach

Load of LOLness... We're actually doing a farewell party for Lulu.. For he's leaving KL this Sunday.. =( Ppl who knows my secret knows how I feel (at least i think so)

N we went along with our newest member Gracieeee.. lol (my cuzzie)

Well, it all began with Lulu who came to my office as in to arrange his bike to send to KL.. He came around 11.50am.. and after settling the documentations.. We both left our office on my bike ard 12.10pm..as planned.. We rode all the way to Noel's house n waited for Essie to come n pick us up.. I remembered that it was a fine day bt with dark clouds la..

So while waiting for Essie to come.. hmm n its quite a long time i think.. Me n Lulu was hungry then..

Around 1pm Essie reached Noel's house n pick us up.. n we are on our way to Penang!! We went to a food court to hv our lunch first before hitting e beachhhhh!!! Miami Beachhh!!!

N so we hit the beach.. Woo! We've started off like a picnic party la.. then only touch the sea water.. I was wanting to emo at e beach n so does Graciee.. lol wat ur gonna do with cousins.. we think the same.. its in the blood.. LOL.. Bt then we end up with the boys carrying us one by one to e sea water to get wet la..hmmmm >.<>

N James was building his "Portugese Port"?? N thus we helped out a bit la.. after that they continued with football on beach la.. n James's port is e goal..

Aft all those fun.. its ald 7 something.. Essie wanted to play truth or dare with them.. n so we sat in a circle while drinking n played.. hmm not much of questions though, n so we ended the game short.. We packed everything n left it in the car so that we could go n shower n change at e nearby public toilet..bt thennnn.. hmm the public toilet's close..!! DAMNNN!!

Bt then there's an uncle whom's so kind (from e nearby hawker stall) showed us n let us use the pipe water at e back of his stall to wash off everything..From there, started la.. Essie got high edi..LOLs aft a few shots of mix vodka n i had a few too.. bt she got high n im not.. juz the head's spinning..

Lucky us, Markie got a relative who's living nearby.. We went there, its actually a recreation ctr on rental stuff on beach sports.. we went there to wash up ourselves n change into dry clothes.. while the girls (me,Essie n gracie) were waiting for Markie n James to finish washing up (Lulu n Noel got ready) Lulu complain that he's hungry.. lucky Gracie had made some delicious sandwiches which lulu named them "Eggna" coz its Tuna sandwich n Egg sandwich.. LOLs

After we all washed up,Noel drove coz Essie's abit blur.. n juz before leaving the ctr.. at e car park lookin at us was Mark's cousin.. n Essie said “Eh y'all wait wait.. Is that boy real??” all of us laugh n said Yes..!!

We went to the Long Beach food court to have some dinner, that time I dun realli hv the mood to eat much.. n so I shared my food with Lulu..=D at least somebody to finish my food for me.. hehehe.. aft dinner all 7 of us walked ard the night market for a while and head home..

Aft I got home, I've chatted with Gracie for a while, then Lulu came online asked me whether i got home edi n all.. So i replied by saying yesh.. n he told me that juz b4 reaching his house coz Essie sending Markie n Lulu home.. Essie tyre puncture..LOL.. n she's damn lucky to hv them both with them.. Otherwise, we wouldnt know where she would b jacking n changing e tyre edi..Lol then all e gang members came online n chatted till 2am..

N so as i always said.. hanging out with them it will end in the name of FUN!

03rd October 2010 - Sunday @1800 hours = Blue Sunday

Well.. the week has pass by fast..

Went for choir practice on Saturday.. Uncle Jim couldn't make it.. So we're practicing on our own..Some uncle conducting the choir la.. James n LuLu dint come for practice coz they went to Karen Lee's birthday party in Penang..

So after practice.. Esther C. dunno what to do.. N she's e one who's really active to go anywhere.. Well, me too.. I like to go out n hang out with friends.. Most of the time, until late night i dun realli mind.. Juz that the relaxation is there.. hang out n chill... What I love the most about goin out with them is chit chatting..sitting down at e beach n juz chill la..

Then yesterday night we actually plan to go to Noel's house n juz hang out there..Bt we asked Lulu n James whether they can come n join us anot..They say mayb can..ard 10pm.. Meanwhile me n Esther r in Old Town hving dinner n juz wait for the time to pass..Hehe.. I actually sms-ed Franklin n told him that I'm hving dinner alone.. ask him to come n join me.. In e end he really did come.. Thanks Frank.. though I'm not alone.. lol.. So me,Esther n Frank hang out-ed at Old Town till 10pm.. n Thank you Frankie for dinner.. hehe.. In e end we dint go to Noel's house.. went home instead.. Bcoz Lulu n James couldnt make it,n they went home straight..

So Sunday is today.. Went for 2 masses.. normal morning mass n shrine mass.. aft shrine mass ends around 1pm..then we had lunch n talked till 2.. then we actually decide to go home edi.. n last minute plans.. Esther said that she wans to go for pool.. Then we went.. I've played for a game n then mum called.. scolded me n asking me to go back.. my heart sank then..She turn my mood upside down edi.. Was totaly sad.. couldnt realli hang out with "Crazy Anything"..

Then when I came home.. Mei told me that mum doesnt wan me to join anything concerning with the Youth.. even choir oso..sighs..!! I really really really wanna join.. n its what i wanted to do for a looooonnngggg time.. n I dun hv the courage to.. Bt now, along with Esther I joined.. Im doin this is becoz I want to serve God in a way that I wan to.. Mum's worried that rumours n all gonna come again.. SiGHS!!!

I know that mum's concern of my well being.. Bt I know what I'm doing.. I know I used to b a girl who stays at home all the time.. dun feel like goin anywhere n all.. Bt I would like to hang out wit friends..especially with "Crazy Anything".. lol

Mum's angry that im always out during these weekends.. Bt I dun hang out until wee hours like 3-4am.. Most of the time is around 1am..n most of the time, Esther C. is the one who fetch me home.. I dun drive most of the time n all.. I know she cares.. Bt wat I can promise is I know what I'm doin n all e activities that we do are healthy.. Either is watching movie,shopping or juz a simple pool game or juz sitting down on e beach n juz chill.. I juz really hope that mum would open her mind out n let me juz hang out with friends..

Coz I'm bored.. I mean realli BORED..!!! coz after work is home.. aft home work again.. everyday is the same type of routine that i always do.. all I wan is really to relax n chill with friends...juz to get all the stress n pressure out.. arghh..!!