hmmm...wat can i say...yesterday was really hectic for me..damn lotsa rejections on Nivea products coming in...sighs...yet still no reply from the customers...that made me really mad...
i dunno y these few days i've been feelin kinda low...n i get angry easily...i dunno how to handle these kinda stuffs anymore...
yesterday evening the TOG ppl came to our home for bible readin...today we're goin to receive a blessing from the Holy Spirit...n mummy was eager to get it..coz she wans to hold onto the tongue language...yes tongue language in christian community is pretty strong...but to me.. i dun really wan all these to happen..though they prayed for me as in for my hyperthyroidism problem that im facing right now... n i thank them for that..bt the thing is...i belive wat made me today is my faith in Jesus...hmmm...i can really see that mummy is into all these stuff..i really hope that she will make the right choice in being who she is n wat religion is she in...
to me all religion teaches good stuff..asking us to b good..so no matter what religion is more powerful n all..it comes to a result that is teaching us to b good..a good person...
n my home..is totally terrible...he keeps complainin to mum about the small mistakes we do n make it as a big story in the hood...i dun really like him...alicia jie knows wat im goin through..though she's not into it..i know that she n ge will b thr for me when i need them...
im very happy to hv her as my sister..
da jie..hmmm...she's been borrowing $$ from me..yes..i can borrow her..bt the thing is im like mum..n she's like dad...its like a circle...when jie asks me for $$ i will giv her..juz like wat happen to mum n him...i find hard to save up a sum of money every month...i've been payin bills more than she is..maxis,water,astro n giving mum allowance... sometimes hv to borrow her some n give mei her allowance too...
nowadays..he's has been acting weird...he has been talkin to me n all..i tried not to talk nor reply him..coz i felt its weird...suddenly he wans to get a good relationship wit me?? impossible...surely there's something behind it...
im so tired...what can i do to stop all these?? i dunno wat is mum up to..i dunno wat is on her mind..there's once she said she wan2 seperate wit him..n i end up looking for lawyer's phone numbers for her..n i asked her to call them herself..bt im not sure whether did she call them o not..or she's still hv feelings for him...?? im really confused n im really very tired...i wan2 get out of this house...n not bother about anything..bt i cant..when i think of mum...
wat can i do more??
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