today has been a tiring day after work...dunno wat can i do to get out...
my life is like repeating by itself..wake up,go to work,come home,hving dinner,then watch tv n sleep...
aft getting my SPM results..when i saw my results are like shit...i dunno wat i can do ald...nothing...b4 this i had plans..bt then..im totali blank of wat im goin to do next...
i was planning to go to singapore to further my favorite course...bt i cant...im not QUALIFIED!!!
im so dissapointed at myself....im cried when i called my mum,i cried when my teacher called me n ask abt my results,n i cried tt i fail my BK exam...i bet God is dissapointed in me...
'some' asks me to go to government schools n study form 6..bt i dun wan to...its hard!
'some' did asks me to go for teacher's college ( government ) as government teachers' salary are higher...
i hate myself sumtimes tt i dint make things rite...there's a problem tt i cant solve..bt im dissapointed at myself of y i cant b thr for my loved ones...im sorry...
for now i dun knw wat can i do or wat can i say..to help solve this...
as for my education...im damn sad...i cant go for wat i wanted..everybody keep pressuring me to go for 'this' go for 'that' in which wat i dont like to go for...
for now working wit my aunt is like working wit a stupid boss..piles of work r waiting for me go settle them...my aunt actualli look down on me..for my results r like shit...she keeps saying others like 'Wow! ur child is totali clever ! got this A, tt A" n wat she doesnt knw abt is she's hurting my feelings..
wat can i do to help myself in this kind of situation? im so hurt im so sad...tt i cant go for wat i wanted...IM DISSAPOINTED IN MYSELF FOR NOT DOING THINGS RITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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