A X'Mas Trip @ 25th Dec 2009

me,mum,mei n grandma, went to Pantai Merdeka which located @ Sg Petani..

mum said she hasnt been thr for ages...so we decide to go over..

we contacted grandma e last min..asking her whether she wan2 come along..she said yes..she ended up making some fried meehoon for us to eat..like 'picnic-king'..love her loads..

mum said the place has change alot...

its really windy over thr... mum's hving fun n so do us..

n guess wat..we're e only chinese thr...haha..all of the ppl thr r malays..

some r fishing, thus most of e kids r playing wit the sea water... mum said the beach b4 was crystal clear...u can even see e fish in e water..bt rite now..all beaches in malaysia are dirty..haha very affirmative..

then mei suggested that we make our sand sculpture...

so this is it..

on our way home..mum drove..then we end up making one big round till we're on the right way home..haha..after hving fun,we forgot the way home..haha

24th December 2009 - Thursday @ 1548hrs

Merry Christmas Y'ALL!!! Today's X'mas Eve..celebratin e day wif mum n xiao mei...

jesselyn n bean went down to jb to see gege liao... she should b reaching @ 5.15pm..ge is driving jelly to fetch them... hope she'll spend wonderous time wit ge.. i realli do hope tt i can go bt i cant..mum's here alone.. wouldnt wan her to spend her xmas alone..

goin for midnight mass later @ st anne's.. let enjoy e xmas spirit together!!! woohoo!! hope there r lots of presents for me under e xmas tree...hehe..

actually i have to travel down to KL to celebrate xmas wif my cousins..bt mum said its too rushing in additonal "his" B.H. driving skills...coz after he drive..we'all will get heart attack n die..so better not go..haha so sory couz.. n so sorry harry i cant go down to party wif u.. =(

lets hope its goona b one Jolly n Happy Xmas 2009!

Jingle Bells is Coming...

Jingle Bells is coming..it is one nice day to spent wif mum n sis...bt in e end... da jie is goin down to jb..sighs..im not sad abt not spending e xmas wif her.. bt im sad she's goin down to jb n tellin me n mei not to...sometimes i dislike her very much...

neway..ystday mum,da jie + her bf + mei + mei ling jie + nieces..went out to Penang...at 1st we met up wif mum's ex-colleague.. we went to Jln Dato Kramat there to eat "Lok-Lok", after that we went to Thai's Sleeping Buddha's temple..later on, they wanted to go back @ 5pm..so we couldnt go till Ke Lok Si to take a look @ e Goddess of Mercy... which is a wonderful place to hang out..

after showing them e way back from where they came from.. all 8 of us went shopping @ Jusco in Queensbay..i bought lots n lotsa stuff..my 100 bucks flew away d..bt its worth it.. =) .. ystday in Queensbay, there's a show acted for the movie "The Dark Knight" which is coming soon to e big screen... later on, there's a model search.. where i only saw 10 pretty ladies n 1 handsome guy..he's not e only guy in the finals..for me..he's a guy who's much better looking than e others..

haha...

in e end..i dint buy anything for xmas present...haha..mayb it will b amend during new year ba.. =)

11th December 2009 - Friday @1508hrs

... been bz this week...

msn wif ge ystday... i was hoing tt he could come up to penang rather tahn v owaz goin down to jb.. i relli hope that he'll b here to celebrate xmas wif us... bt then, he said he's goin to celebrate xmas wif his 1st god daugther..guess that's important.. *sighs

xmas is coming.. bt i cant go down to jb n celebrate it wif alicia jie n ge.. coz da jie said she's goin down wif her bf.. n she keeps sayin tt i went down during june ald..still wan2 head down to jb again..

i dun understand..for heaven's sake, its my $$..coz mama said i can go down ald..oh well, guess that's that.. i hv to change my plans abt goin down to jb d..coz next year mei is hving a major exam..so cant bring her down to jb either.. so mayb the year after ba...

i reli hate da jie sometimes..coz she's being abnoxious all e time when she's wif her bf..sometimes i pity her bf..though its his 1st time in a relationship..so for all 1st timers..they dunno some of e stuff..some guys are not sensitive...so hv to bear wit it...sometimes her request are reli too much for him..i pity him @ times...

i hate my cousin bro,Kelvin..he owaz touch my stuffs..my facebook status..he will write "im super duper fat", "im so itchy" etc... urgh..! so so hate him..i feel like scolding him @ times..like today, i dunno how the stores' person are working..then he scolds me wor.. out of nothing.. coz i dunno anything.. argh !! so angry wit him...

neway..Star Walk is on Sunday..reli hope that i can get a medal or sumting... =) wish me luck!!

28th Nov 2009 - Saturday @ 1542hrs

while everybody's is taking their own sweet time to spend the day...im here working my ass off..though its a holiday..

gege..fly my aeroplane again... he told me tt he's coming up 2 penang for hols..bt then, called him ystdy..he told me tt every hotel in Bt Feringgi is fully booked..so e aeroplane flew off juz like tt...

sighs..so sad..

aunt went to china for a vacation..left the company for me to handle..sighss..one of a hectic n bz week im hving starting on today..

sometimes im mad @ da jie coz for some unreasonable reasons.. she likes to let her lil miss behaviour to come out whenever she wans to get wat she wans..like ystday..she saw her friend got her nail done for abt RM10 due promotion..she wans to get it..so she went wif her "friend" n met me n mei there... so she said she wans to hv her nails done too..then i said go n ask the sales person thr la..then she comes wif her missy attitude askin me n mei to ask.. ARGH! totali hate her attitude infront of her "friend"..++ i even hate her for breaking her promises to herself n me..

saying tt she'll leave that guy for good..in the end, the promise has been breaking since then..

her bf is far more better than e "friend" she's hanging out now.. i dun knw wat she wan2 do..no matter wat im still angry wit her.. twice she went out wif her "friend" till 5 am..mostly 4am..

Mum's not home last week..then i plan to take e car coz friday's a holiday.. bt then.. he's driving mum's car.. so..ask mei to ask him for e car..in e end, mei said i can take e car..bt on 1 condition, muz give him $$.. i was thinking, he drove e car until no petrol d..still asking 4 $$?? how dare he!

bt hv to give..coz if not..cant take e car...i told mum abt this..bt mum dint make a sound..

So So FURIOUS!!

9th November 2009 Monday @ 1234 hrs

One sunday..forgotten when d... one bible verse came into my mind..Job14:6 -So look away from him and let him alone, till he has put in his time like a hired man. wat does it mean?

is it tellin me to leave him alone..?? i really hope it does... coz i dun wan2 bother everything or anythin tt has got to do wif him...

the other day..juz last week..he juz went off without sayin where is he goin... left for 3 days... then his sis sms mummy..sayin tt he's wif her..coz he's on a mission for himself to get to believe in God. but its by the help from his sis...

anyway...when he came back...@ 1st i tot he'll changed..bt he hadnt...he's still e same old guy..nothing is goin to change him... he's still e same..e guy to asks for $$ from us all...i was almost bankrupt last month for real... becoz..he ask from da jie for $$ bt da jie said she dun hv any $$..then he said to ask from me..sayin tt i've got $$... even mum too asks me to give him $$...

1 thing tt i dun like to do is giving him $$..

e next thing is..he mummurs all e time.. dun even know wat he's trying to say..always criticising us..saying tt we've got no manners..owaz dint give him $$ to spend... so damn frustrated wif him...

well..mum's good..bt on saturday..dunno wat's got into her..aft church..went home..nag nag nag n scold scold scold all e time wor.. sighs..juz hope tt she wont get angry when she comes home this week...

another thing is...da jie.. last few weeks..she has been goin out wif this guy til 3am...dunno wat she's been doin..bt in e end she explain it to us..sayin tt she has been goin out wif this guy..pretends to b his gf bcoz of the guy's mother..so after tt..she got herself in trouble..the guy actually likes her..n wans her to b his gf.. though he ald know tt da jie got bf d...bt da jie rejected..n stop goin out wif him since..lucky for her...

n the next thing is..she get to go down to jb for xmas this year... so sad..i cant go...sighss...*sob sob*

mei...hmmm... she's been hving her exams lately..n been studyin late night since last week... another thing is..she has been on e phone wif a guy name Calvin also known as her schoolmate...curious between both of them...dunno whther the sparks are coming out again o not..hehe..

well...Penang Bridge Marathon is comin up...running for it...then later on Star Walk..hehe..hope that i could get in to a lucky draw n get a car...*crossing fingers* hahaha

I think its coming back again...

.... these few days has been feeling weird..its as same as wat i felt b4.. the sickness tt i had b4..

a few weeks back..e doc told me tt im cured.. bt rite now... i hv to go back for a check up.. i feel its coming back again..my heart pulpitation..my breathing.. my hands are trembling again...getting realli stressed up..getting angry over lil things again...

its hyperthyroidism again...

sighs...when will it b gone..?? when will it stop? i dont want to take any medications anymore..i dun wan to go through those needles n taking lotsa dose every time..my throat is swelling up again... bit by bit..

i realli wan it to stop...i realli do...

yesterday..sms ge..bt then he juz got back from his work..so he's pretty tired..same goes to alicia jie jie...wanted to tell them abt this..bt they seem bz..dun wan to bother them...

then again..with $$ problem.. he called mum up to ask for $$ for mum is not goin to b back this week...due to she's got a meeting in hatyai... then mum called me ystday to give him 50 bucks... i told mum tt i juz gave him 10 bucks this morning..dun tell me its not enuf to spend it for the day??!! im really furious.. im not use to giving him $$, so i pass e 50 bucks to da jie today...as mum reminded me to give him $$ yesterday nite...

sighs... when will he stop asking for $$?? n go work?? its impossible tt no1s want to hire him.. at his age..there r so many vacancies around in penang...as drivers n all... nobody will look down on him when he's taking up small jobs like this... at least he's earning his own $$ rather than asking from his WIFE! yes..children giving their parents $$ is rite one way..by e thing is his attitude of not working n goin out all e time..lying all e time..its not e rite way to ask for $$.. its not e rite thing to do also...unless he's paralyse..then its rite for me to give him the support tt he needs..

im really frustrated...wat can i do??