I think its coming back again...

.... these few days has been feeling weird..its as same as wat i felt b4.. the sickness tt i had b4..

a few weeks back..e doc told me tt im cured.. bt rite now... i hv to go back for a check up.. i feel its coming back again..my heart pulpitation..my breathing.. my hands are trembling again...getting realli stressed up..getting angry over lil things again...

its hyperthyroidism again...

sighs...when will it b gone..?? when will it stop? i dont want to take any medications anymore..i dun wan to go through those needles n taking lotsa dose every time..my throat is swelling up again... bit by bit..

i realli wan it to stop...i realli do...

yesterday..sms ge..bt then he juz got back from his work..so he's pretty tired..same goes to alicia jie jie...wanted to tell them abt this..bt they seem bz..dun wan to bother them...

then again..with $$ problem.. he called mum up to ask for $$ for mum is not goin to b back this week...due to she's got a meeting in hatyai... then mum called me ystday to give him 50 bucks... i told mum tt i juz gave him 10 bucks this morning..dun tell me its not enuf to spend it for the day??!! im really furious.. im not use to giving him $$, so i pass e 50 bucks to da jie today...as mum reminded me to give him $$ yesterday nite...

sighs... when will he stop asking for $$?? n go work?? its impossible tt no1s want to hire him.. at his age..there r so many vacancies around in penang...as drivers n all... nobody will look down on him when he's taking up small jobs like this... at least he's earning his own $$ rather than asking from his WIFE! yes..children giving their parents $$ is rite one way..by e thing is his attitude of not working n goin out all e time..lying all e time..its not e rite way to ask for $$.. its not e rite thing to do also...unless he's paralyse..then its rite for me to give him the support tt he needs..

im really frustrated...wat can i do??