20 May 2008 @2047 hours

hmmm it has been a long time ever since i wrote a blog nor update this blog...

evrything has been hectice for me..
working life aint tt nice anymore...
was thinking of changing a new job, a new experience bt then...
sigh no can do...if ppl who knows me knows the reason y...

now im writing this for someone i love very much...

i juz wanna lert him know to get ready for tomorrow's challenge as i will know tt God will guide him through all the obstacles...

i will b praying for him the whole day through...i hope that he'll try his best to get through this challenge...i will b with him the whole day through too...as i will try my best to get a little time out of my busy job to call him....n check out hows everything goin ..

tis person tt im saying is whom i relli love..
he's a guy who cares for me very much, he's the one who hv been by my side when i need him..
he's much likely better off than any guys i knw..
he's a caring person,
he's kind,
he's everything to me...
nobody can replace him,his place in my heart...

so i hope tt person reads my blog..
i wan him to know tt i will b thr for him..
all the time...
JIA YOU!!!!!

25th Apr 2008 @1958hrs

sigh....been bz with work nowadays...dun even hv time to update my blog.....

parents are not around...went for holiday in china...damn syok coz they're not around...can drive to work summore...wuhuu~~!!

thr's a guy in the house tt is da jie's friend who came for a visit...who is actuali her ex now...
sigh,..i pity tt guy..bt still i find him annoying...
he keeps doing sumthing tt as if he's still my sis bf...sigh.....
i feel like telling him off..bt dun dare still...he's kinda a big guy bt inside he's a momma's boy....
i knw i cant say him like tt bt still this is blog...
i knw its not good...bt i hv to find a place to put out my feeling abt this guy so that i wont do sumthing stupid to him like tellin him off for instance...

a guy like him shud find sum1 who's better off than my da jie....i knw my da jie..whats she decides she wont change her mind..no matter how u convince her or persuade her...(except for shopping la)
walao...fell like telling him to get outta here n go back to whr u came frm...
to me if a guy like him...i would b more cruel n tell him off...i dun tt guy...
wish tt he's goin tomorrow....

13th April 2008 @ 2204hrs

sigh...its goin to b a tirng dsay starting 2mrw....
my colleague has resign...
n i hv to stay in m aunt's office to work wit aunties...
the newcomer aunty isnt helping me a bit...
i hope 2mrw time's will go fast...
n in a long time...
i will b an auntie too...

i hope that my days are goin on happily...
bt still pressure in work n my plans...
my plans arent goin well for me...
all things do hv disadvantages...
for me thr's a lot...
i hope my work can end early n fast..
or even i can find a new job..
work hard for my goals..
n not to work wit my aunt who scolds n mock at me everyday
even when i dint do anything wrong...
i hate her...i hope i will find a new job..a job tt i like n i will excel in it...


nowadays haven been sleeping well
bcoz i was thinking whether or not shud i go down to visit my beloved brother...
coz he said he's goin to b bz when im goin thr...
im hoping that he's not avoiding from me...
coz avoiding isnt the solution to all problems...

i juz hope tt i can go down to support him..
give him encouragement
n treat him juz like i treat him b4..
give him a happy memory...

everynite i pray hard...
for him to b healthy...for a cure frm God..
n i hope tt God will help me n him ...

i belif tt everything's goin to b ok..
i love my brother very much...
n i knw tt evrybody too..
coz he's a great guy...totali! seriously!
no other guy can take over his place...in my heart...

God please help me out here!!!!

got a bad news -31st March 2008 @ 1608hrs

i recieve a bad news frm sum1 whom i relli loved...
he said he's hving a failure heart problem..
i m juz hoping the problem wont relapse..
coz im goin to lose him if the problem relapse..

i m relli desperated,
not knwing wat to do tt can save his life...
im relli sad felt like i wanna cry out loud bt i cant...
coz evry1 will ask me 'y? wat happen?'

i juz wanna say...BK..i love u very much,
i knw tt u'll b alright..coz God is here..
he'll make evrything impossible to b possible...
juz need to belif in him...trust him n pray to him...
n i will owaz b here wit u if u need me...

confused - 27th March 2008 @ 1800hrs

im so confused...whether shud i study or shud i work...its a tough decision to make n to think abt...

i hv to think abt my family, if i go for my studies n depend on them

i dun think its a good thing...



if i work,although i cud save up a sum of money i needed,

bt i will get a sponsorship if i work through the year...

now i dunno wat cna i decide on...
can sum1 help me?

wat can i do? 24 March 2008 @ 1611 hrs

i haven been myself lately...
haven been sleeping days n nites...
thinking abt wat am i goin to do next..

aft i got my results,
my heart drop...
i cant go to singapore to further my studies...
instead i hv to plan other plans to do abt my life
tt God has set for me...

for now..studying is not my plan...
instead working for this year is my plan
coz i wanna save up a sum of money so that i can support myself to a college
that suits me n im comfortable wit..

i felt that evrybody is expecting my results to be good...
bt instead..it happen to b a dissapointment..
i bet my brother is dissapointed n expecting my lil sis to do better than me...
like wat he did to my elder sis...

sumtimes it bothers me that people look down on me...
church's 'people' look down on me..though everybody are my 'friends'

wat hurts me most is that my family look down on me..
for wat i did n do...though i love them alot n they love me too...
bt still i felt the feeling of dissapointment in them to me..

church's tragedy happen so fast that i got misunderstood of hving an adultery with my god-father...i dunno wat happen or wat did i do to hv this mistake happen onto me...
now im banned frm doing God's work...in church...
now i dun trust anyone frm that church except the ones who r my real friends tt i knw i cud belif in them...n they knw the truth abt my story...

all these had happen so fast..till im relli blinded by the trust i gave unto them...
i hv to say that i cant trust the friends i had in my life..
i dun even tell secrets to them abt my stuff...
i dun talk to them much...

for all that i did for them , bad stuffs happen to me from them
is wat i get in being their helper...

for now im lost of wat m i goin to do next...

im tired...so so tired...
now my beloved brother isnt talking to me...
no matter how i tried...

i wanna say...
gege wat did i do 2 make u so angry wit me?
can u tell me?

i dunno wat can i do to make everything rite...
im useless...tired...
wat can i do?

cute n adorable pup-24 March 2008 @ 1358hrs

its has been a long day for me...i hope i can go home fast after work...
my house is under renovation..thr's lotsa dust bunnies n all..
bt still its my home tt i hv to live in...

recently happen lotsa stuff that r untinkable..
for instance my mum came home early..than usual..to help us around wit the housechores...

its a happy day on friday...my dad brought home a pup..its cute n adorable...
all of us love it in the family...bt its uncontrollable when its hungry...hehe
when it see us eat dinner, it kept whining coz it wanna eat...haha
very cute..aft eating it goes to sleep in its basket...
hmm i call it 'it' coz v still hv no name for it...
i was thinking of calling 'it' Pig
coz it eat then sleep...eat then sleep...haha..bcame fat aft it came to our house..

it keeps coming into the living room n play...
bad thing is,it pee everywhr in the living room..i hv to clean up all the time when it pee....
haha...