11th Nov 2011 - Tuesday @ 0000 hours

Love... Hmm definition of love? - A profound tender,passionate affection for another person - a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection for a parent or a child or a friend - to a person whom love is felt.. Etc etc.. Love has got a lot of meanings in it.. Bt hv u ever wonder what it really is? Neither do I.. Haha.. Eversince the puppy love that I had when I was form 3.. I haven found the one yet till now..weird huh? =) everybody's asking me.. U got bf anot? I answered them no.. They r not believing my words.. :$ Keep asking "Realli arr?? Realli??" I was determined.. Cause I realli dun hv one yet.. =D Well.. Being single is either an advantage or disadvantage.. Freedom.. U can do anything u wan n not worry abt e other half even when ur hanging out wit another guy or gal.. Hmm.. Lol.. I've observe ppl pretty much.. Well.. For girls.. When we're single we would be like.. "OMG.. I wish to b hug by my bf.. Bt I dun hv one..=(" the funniest one that I saw my friend did when we were watching some Korean dramas.. When the actors get lovey dovey wit e actress.. She'll b like "How I wish my future bf would do this for me.. How I wish that it will all b romantic" etc etc.. For guys.. Hmm haven realli get to figure it out yet.. Hahaha.. Bt when ur in a relationship.. Some of it lasts.. N they're realli lovey dovey.. N some of it will b like.. I hate u bt meanwhile I love u.. Hmmm.. When e other half ain't around.. Some guys/girls will say "Yay! Time to get the party started!!" Well.. From time to time.. I've lost my track to being love n to love somebody.. Y?? Cause I've seen couples fighting wit my own eyes.. I've seen couples quarreling over a small matter..I've seen friends getting troubled by the other half.. In other words getting hurt.. I've lost my confidence towards finding "the one".. When ppl asked me "When n how was ur first kiss like?" I answered.. I haven kissed a person before.. How would i know?? Lol.. They were like shocked n I think u r too.. Haha Bet ur thinking "R u for Real??" Well yea.. In my past puppy love.. He requested bt I refused.. Ask the guy if u dun belief me.. Well.. The time will come I hope.. We'll see what's plan the e guy above has plan for me.. =)

10th Jan 2011 - Monday @2005hours

Hv u ever tot of.. How ugly u looked?? Hv u ever doubted urself could get a nice guy to be wit?? Well.. I do.. No matter how perfect u gonna be.. There will b some disadvantages abt e physical look or even attitude.. That's y they say.. Nothing's n no one's perfect.. I would say.. I do hv e nice body.. Bt I hv a big fat ass n big fat legs..I do admire where ppl hv perfect figures.. Real nice figures.. Where they can find jeans that fits perfectly. Where I'm hving a freaking hard time to look for a pair of jeans..coz my ass n thighs r huge.. N I realli mean HUGE! My heart sank when I look at my back in e mirror.. It's realli like a big fat lady from behind.. Sighs.. Well.. Being heritage by my Mum's side to hv big fat ass n legs.. R meant to b.. Bt I realli hope that working on it would work for my legs to b thinner n qualify for at most all e airlines interviews.. God! Help me please... Desperate huge legs girl..

09th Jan 2011-Sunday @1300hrs

The beginning of the year seems to pass that easily.. Well, it doesn't change anything at all at most.. Hmmm.. There's alot of things that will go thru our mind.. Sometimes it's juz some random songs,sometimes it's juz some past memories,sometimes it's wad ur planning,sometimes it's e opposite sex of a person.. Bt most of e time.. It's juz a block of darkness.. When it comes for me to write,it will owaz go blank.. Of wad I tot before to write.. Maybe I shud take a pen n sheets of paper to write wherever I go.. I wonder wad r the things that goes on other ppl's mind rite now.. Hmmm.. U wouldn't know unless they tell u themselves.. Most ppl says that,beginning of a new year it's a beginning of a new start.. Well wad do u think? Life is either like a story or a drama.. No matter wad,it's another chapter/scene that u gotta start telling/acting.. We're living in a world which is full of mysteries n surprises.. Sometimes it's good n sometimes its bad.. U wouldn't know wads gonna happen next.. U wouldn't even know wads is in e plan in ur life.. Plans.. Hmm.. No matter how u plan ur life.. Sometimes it'll go smoothly,or juz another bump to break ur plans.. Surprises.. Surprises.. That u wouldn't know.. No matter wad.. Juz a smile away to keep everything aaight.. At least is wad I think..