Music to Our Ears.. =)

Have u ever wondered abt who created music in e 1st hand?? Nyeh... Neither do I.. Lols But whoever who created music is some genius.. Rite now there r quite an amount of wonderful cum famous singers all ard e world..thus music leaves a beat to your heart.. Some make u dance,some'll make u sing to it.. N some leaves a memory/history to it.. Well.. We all do enjoy music.. It doesn't matter whether it's classical or pop or acoustic etc etc.. Each n everyone has at least a type of music that they like to listen to.. N I can assure that nobody in this world doesn't listen to music.. Don't u think so? =) As for me.. Music let me remember my past memories.. Hmmm let's take "I Hate This Part Right Here" by Pussycat Dolls for instance.. This song reminded me of my 1st breakup aka 1st relationship.. All those happy n sad memories.. N when he has a new gf in school.. N when he even dated my sis.. Well all these I could remember clearly from a song.. Juz like that.. That's y I dun listen to this song at all aft wad had happen.. Whenever it's on e radio.. I would turn it off.. Coz it kinda hurts me much to remember what he did.. Though I'm e one who said e breakup.. At least I get to know what kind of guy he is rite? =) Oh well what has pass is e past tense..life has to go on rite?? Hmm I'm currently at a bus station now.. Awaiting for the bus to come n head down to jb again.. =)

4th March 2011 - Friday @1917hours

So its Friday again..
This week we've been listening to Lite fm.. Pretty good now.. rather than all e commercials that they use to hv.. Now mostly they r 80s music.. I dunno y.. I've been listening to oldies lately.. maybe its kinda soothing n jolly..

Well, I got my iPhone back aft it has shut down on me.. Send it to Digi center,been loads of arguing between me n Digi's CS.. Aft that they decided to replace me a new unit,same model..
So a new phone.. a new start of getting new apps.. lols..

Sigh.. Been moody lately.. unknown to what should i do to make all things rite.. When one say, do this ur in e wrong path.. do that is another mistake.. I've tried my very best to make it up to everybody..especially to the one whom I've grown up with.. whom I adores n look up to most..
I hope that we start talking n chit chatting soon like we used to.. =]

Some1 ask me today.. "Jackie.. R u ok?? U've been cleaning for quite a few hours now.." she told me that these days I've been cleaning things.. such as my office tables,washing the dishes n re-washing.. Then she told me, "I realize that whenever ur in a moody mood,u clean.." I smiled n say "I'm fine.. No worries"..

Aft thinking abt wad she said.. I was like hmm yea.. I clean/eat (alot) whenever I'm moody cum depress..Maybe its what I do.. I hope that Im not goin to be like this when I'm goin for my SIA's interview next week.. Later help e hotel janitor to clean their toilets.. LOLs

Hmmm... my colleagues told me that my throat is like kinda swollen again.. But I dun really hv any symptoms like before.. No racing heartbeat neither does weight gone down fast or even hving any breathing difficulties.. But when I straightened my hands out, it kinda like shivers a lil.. So I guess I hv to go back to e hosp n hv it check out.. HOpe that everything goes well.. If not.. might go for surgery edi,coz i dun wanna take e medications.. It'll make me fat juz by taking their medications.. Coz if i got fat, I couldnt get thru for the interview.. They'll juz kick me out... SO i hope that everything's ok..*crossing fingers*

David Cook - Permanent - American Idol Finale 2009

Being stucked in e middle...

I've juz realize something..
That I've hurt someone pretty bad.. Bt the thing is he won't utter a word abt it..
He's e one whom I adores n loves most.. N he hasnt been talking to me for days..weeks..

Maybe I shouldnt hv promise her that I could b her bridesmaid.. Maybe I shouldnt hv..
Im kinda regretting abt it now..

Hell.. Its kinda hard to owaz be in the middle of something at times..
ezpecially if your in a special relationship with the both of them..
What should I do?? Aft watching a video that he posted.. It really speaks abt him..
N with that.. It really kills me inside.. where Im gonna be e girl's bridesmaid..

He pretends to be fine in front of me.. But i know that he's hurt in a way i did..
maybe I shouldn hv promise her.. maybe i shouldn hv plan everything.. maybe...
GAH!!! I really made a big mistake this time.. SHYTE!!!!

I feel like crying.. I wanna say Sorry to him.. I really hope that I'm in his arms hugging him.. saying that I'm sorry..

Sometimes its really hard for me to make decisions between two.. But I think this time.. I'll go with my guts n say that I couldnt be her bridesmaid.. But I'll help her with everything she needs.. other than being her bridesmaid/jie mei...

In e end.. today..I told her that I couldnt be her bridesmaid... She's sad cum angry.. sighs.. Its really hard to tell her.. I'm really sorry that i hv to make this decision..
Due to his current situation.. I hv to think abt him n his feelings..
feel like T.T-ing rite now...
what should i do to make everything better??? What can I do to make e situation to be like before??